Another Thursday Night of "Krapp" I attended "Band Night" last night after a long hiatus (at least 4 or 5 months.) It was mildly fun and entertaining, but I can't help walking away with the feeling of "why bother?" Maybe it's cause I haven't really played my guitar in months or maybe it's cause Keith was there (that bastard!) But overall, I kinda lack the enthusiasm to play that I once had.

I've got to admit, I had a blast when things were sounding good. We whipped out a semi-decent version of "Flake", "Run Around", and "Hotel California," and there were some crappy versions of other stuff too. One of the things that lessen the enjoyment for me is the fact that people are there to watch "Band Night." When it goes well, it's all good... but when things aren't working - people fade fast and get restless. I just hate being unprepared. PRESSURE!!!!

We tried to get things organized this week: Josh got a play list together of about 13 or 14 songs. It would've worked out pretty well, but Keith was a no-show so that put the kabosh on things. It's hard to play a lot of the songs when you don't have the lead guitar, and unfortunately, no one else knows his parts.

Even when I have fun, the next day I'm always asking myself, "why do I bother?" Yeah, it's good to get out and drink some beer and make some noise, but somehow I think that I'm also just wasting my time. Maybe I just need start playing more.  ¶ 8:40 AM